5 days into the new year and honestly its kind of craptastic. (Thats a word, right?! Well it is now.) All of my children have been sick, my husband has been sick, and I have been fighting off whatever nasty bug took them all down. Being a mom and getting sick sucks. There is no one to take care of you. No one to help. You can’t call in sick. You can’t just go sleep it off. And by the time you get sick, everyone else is getting better which means they all have their energy back so now you have to try to keep up with them. I couldn’t even tell you how many times in the past 5 days I wanted to cry or did actually cry.

Not the way I had thought I was going to start the new year.

On one side I can totally see the fresh start of the New Year. Something is in the air. Change is possible. Motivation is all around you. Dreams seem bigger and so clear.
On the other side, I can see how its just another day and change is possible at any time as long as the person is willing to change. But the extra boost from New Years is always nice.

I feel like I have already let myself and my goals down. Which is being ridiculous, I know. Like I said, we are only 5 days into the new year. I still have 360 days to go. 360 new possibilities.

You know what I think part of it is? Stupid anxiety and depression. They are freakin hungry monsters that will jump at any chance to tear you down and rip you to shreds. The lack of sleep and work outs doesn’t help either. Sleep and endorphins are such a vital parts to help me do all the things that I have to do in a single day.

This week I hope will be different. I will make this week different! This week I have plans, and those plans will happen. This week I will clean, organize, and renovate my home office. This week will be the start to the new year I should have had days ago.

I hope you all had the start to the new year that you wanted and needed. And if you didn’t, don’t worry, tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities.

~ Michelle